Simply Chaotic or Chaotic Simplicity

I don't wish to be 30 again." I've been there, done that, got the t-shirt", as they say. I try hard to understand where that generation is coming from, after all, I have lived through my 30's; and now that I am in my 50's, I realize I can't think like I did in my 30's. I am in no way disregarding this stage in life called "thirty-something"...loved it when I was there; but now that I have "survived" it, I look forward to, and love...being in the 50-something generation. 

Priorities change. I had the same dreams, goals and ambitions in my 30's...I know what it's like. I've reached and attained some of them, and others I am still striving for. I remember the struggles of raising a family, working, trying to go to school...balancing home life and work life...hoping to be successful at one of them at least. 

I get frustrated trying to again balance a new challenge of "thinking like a 30 year old"...when in fact, I don't have to! I can assure many folks that when that stage of life comes, 20 years down the road, perspectives, ideas, worries...all change. We tend to "not sweat the small stuff"...and save our energy for the more important things in life. We do have that right, by the way...we've earned our stripes and wings! 

I, personally, have spent my early years working two and three jobs, constantly worrying about creating a routine and stable life for my kids; or being the "perfect" mom, housewife, worker...etc. It didn't always work out, but the experience has made me who I am...and has allowed me to look back with not so many regrets. 

When it comes down to it, we do the best we can, and hopefully some of what we do will leave a lasting impression. We are only human...we are not "perfect"; but our flaws are what make us who we are. They are our own unique characteristics from living that fabulous thing called life. 

So please let me live my life and be happy for me, as I am for you...you have so much to see and do and learn...and I still do too. Our generations are different, we need to understand that, accept that, and be thankful we have the opportunity to share in one another's lives. For 20 years from now, you will indeed feel differently about your life, and the life of others...trust me! Written and expressed in gratitude and love! Peace.